The Phrase “Missing Everyone/People”

I’ve been thinking. you know, how sometimes we have this certain feeling of missing some people in our life simply because for some reasons that may vary to every person.

I’m assuming one of the reason we all could agree on is the fact we miss some people in our life simply because we haven’t been spending time with them. true?

but the thoughts in my mind that’s running through right now is that; we miss one or two people or maybe more.

BUT

Do they miss us back?

Do they miss the person whose missing them?

its a bit bogus don’t you think?

i mean

what’s the point of missing them if they don’t even care?
what’s the point of missing them when some of them don’t even know you exist?
what’s the point of missing them when some of them think your annoying?
what’s the point of missing them when all they do is hurt you?
what’s the point of missing them when you yourself don’t really know them?
what’s the point of missing them when some people just pretend to so call like you when you’re around but then again they talk SHIT about you behind your back?

and most importantly

what’s the point of missing them when they

DON’T EVEN MISS YOU!

so whats the point exactly? i know some of you whose reading this may have a certain hatred feeling for me. then again, why bother reading? why bother wasting time reading something of someone who you hate completely or just happened to annoy you and get on your nerve?

sometimes i wonder if there was something wrong with me. then again, whenever that thought comes to mind, it reminds me of what Jamie would say or anyone else at times.

” no one in this world is perfect. EVERYONE has something wrong with them its just how people accept it. if its something bad, then people around should be advising not talking crap about it. and if the end of the day some people cant except you for who you are, don’t bother wasting time trying to make yourself accepted by them. cause its NOT worth it.”

yeah i know i have something wrong with me., I’m not perfect and I’m not shame to admit that. giving the fact that some people are self centered or think highly of themselves or just plainly mean towards others.

here’s one more thing that runs through my mind. why would we be mean or cruel towards each other? why hate each other? whatever happened to we should live in the world of love and peace and harmony? so if i hurt you or did something wrong to you. tell me. confront me. don’t go behind my back or having it as your status that at times makes people think what the hell is wrong with you or what exactly is your problem?

i’ve learn something from Jamie. and that is to never EVER put anyone first then myself ever again. cause in the end of it, some may leave but you wont be dumb to leave yourself would you?

so yeah i admit i do miss some people at times. and now coming to think of it, why should i be missing some people when they don’t even care? right?

of course I’ll always miss some people without fail for some reasons.

I’ll miss Viv simply because I’m close to her and share a special bond with her. I’ll miss her when i don’t get to talk to her. i miss her cause she lives far away. i miss her being silly at me sometimes. i miss everything bout her.

I’ll miss Jamie when i don’t get to talk to him. why? simply because he makes sense even when he’s being a total smart ass. i miss him being silly and making me laugh when i don’t get to talk to him. i miss his reactions and phrases like “ZOMGBBQSCELOLERSKATESROFLTITTIESMCGEE” which i have no idea what some of it stands for.

I’ll miss the Atkins fella cause i share almost everything with him. i’ll miss him for not being able to talk to him sometimes. and tease him of having a threesome(personal joke). and basically how lame he is at times.

I’ll miss my nephews when i don’t get to see them. play with them or watching them take a nap. miss them calling me aunty.

i miss you. i miss hanging out with you and spending some time with you. and at times ending up sleeping over at your place. i miss you being crazy over bands. i miss you going crazy over Kyle Patrick and Paramore and many others. i miss you being my best friend.

i miss being able to spend time with Amelia and how she talks bout stuff. and not forgetting how excited she gets when planning something.

i miss having Markie telling me stories and updating me bout his life when we don’t talk. i miss a lot of people.

i miss a lot of people. but the question is: do they miss me as i miss them? i know some of them does. what bout the rest? my point is, don’t miss the people whose doesn’t really matter. cause the people that matters most is the best thing you’ll ever have. so screw some people who doesn’t get what I’m trying to say. and screw those of you who hate everything bout me. or hate the sight of me. cause i don’t freaking care. i have the 2 most wonderful people people in my life and i could not be happy than that. i don’t deserve them but i still have them.

so thank you

JAMES CHRISTOPHER BOX

a.k.a

JAMIE

and

VIVIAN TEOH!

woah!

that was long!

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