Thoughts Running Through My Mind xD

Its 10.30 am right now. Talking to panda at this very moment. Since my last post, everyone has been questioning on the entire “Boys are like purses” phrase. And I had to explain to them what exactly do I mean by that.

Not just that. I had many responses especially from the guys. I’m assuming they aren’t too happy and neither the agree on that phrase. And I had some saying “girls are like shoes” and many other things.

But here’s what me and Viv had agreed on.

“Boys are like purses and Girls are like diamonds.”

Why diamonds if u may ask.

This is what Viv has come up with:

A princess cut diamond is unique outside with sparkling personality. Normal diamonds are much the same. Slight things that spoil the diamonds, because they are sensitive. Most girls are honest and want to settle. Most guys are commitment phobic and are total players. It’s a fact proven by 70% of the females. Females’ biological clock started ticking faster than the men’s. So it’s just natural that women wanted to settle. And also, that’s why they have earlier hormone changes when they were adolescents

I’m NOT saying ALL guys are assholes. Neither am I saying ALL girls are sweet and innocent. But I do believe there’s a reason why girls are being mean towards a particular person and guys being assholes. As said earlier, guys are commitment phobic. So I’m assuming when I girl confess and say she likes him and when feelings evolved he tends to start being an asshole. Why? As simple as he just won’t want to settle for a girl?

My Panda just went to bed. And I am left all alone with my thoughts running through my mind. This whole boys, love and relationships keep running through my mind. Especially long distance relationship. Does it really work? I want to believe that it will work. I admit I’ve been in these sorts of relationship. But somehow or rather I still have doubts on it. A friend of mine found her first love through the internet. The guy lives across the world. Everything was going on kinda well for both of them. Then again they started arguing and such. He came down and after he left and head back home, things just weren’t the same for both of them anymore. And in the end of it, it just ended. Did their feelings change though? They “dated” for about a year plus.

The fact that my panda lives in another country kinda scares me too. I have feelings for my panda I do. But what scares me is that we both might have a change of heart. And neither of us wants to be hurt. Not that we’re anything special now. But yeah. The same very question goes into my mind. Will it ever work? Will relationship which started on online basis ever work? I don’t know what to think of it anymore. Been in it before. But I guess I have yet to learn my lesson on this.

Knowing the fact that panda might read this, I still wanna go on typing what’s on my mind. It’s the only way I could let things out I guess. Besides my dear Jamie isn’t online for me to talk about things. I guess he’s just busy with work and his wife. No. No. I don’t mean wife as a woman. I meant his wife by this game WoW. Yes he’s like married to this game. I’m serious. He doesn’t care about anything else besides this game. Sorry Jamie. But I guess everyone knows that by now.

I made a new friend just few days ago. And we were talking earlier about life in general. And I find him a pretty interesting person to talk to. A major in history but neither he is boring nor is he lame. Very philosophical. Never really came across on anyone that young who’s very passionate about teaching. And the fact that he wants to teach in order to give back to the community and not because of the money just amazed me. Like I said I have never came across anyone at our age having thoughts like he has. He asked me a simple question. And it was

“Could society have come as far as it has come without a rational core?”

What would your answer be?

And I just had to share some of his thoughts with all of you. I hope you don’t mind Seth.

“I believe that a person doesn’t make mistakes but only acts, because everybody acts for a reason that is likewise interconnected with everyone else. Every time you act I don’t think it can be a mistake because you are just acting as you are supposed to act. I think that acting how people want you to act is just another way of acting and only those who are supposed to act as others act will act as such. I think no matter how you act it is the correct way for you to be acting. Therefore if you make a mistake it was a mistake that you were supposed to make for a certain reason that may be unbeknownst to you. Well if they are no mistakes then what is there for people to learn from? From my view you don’t see the so called mistakes as mistakes and thus you just keep living as if what were mistakes were instead just happenings.” – Seth

Weee~ panda came back online. Wasn’t he supposed to be sleeping? :O ahh figures. He can’t seem to sleep. I wonder why though. And the fact he needs to be up in few hours just doesn’t seem to matter for him. Either way I get to talk to him and see him on cam. So it’s fine. I’m happy. I swear every time he says he needs to go, I get a little upset. Why? It’s because I know I’ll miss him. We don’t talk that much. The time difference is being a butt hole. BLEH! We talk for like 2-3 hours a day. And that’s it. Not forgetting I need to be up early to talk to my Panda. Be up say about 8am or so. I don’t mind waking up early to talk to him. Cause I can always sleep after he goes offline. But the fact that we don’t talk much upsets me. Not forgetting how much I’ll miss him and how his always on my mind when his gone. xD

I just find this funny at times. How can a stranger whom you have not met manage to get close to you and touch your heart?  Be a special someone when you have not met them? I have some of my bestest friends I made online. Could it be the time we spent talking to each other everyday? Could it be we understand each other? Maybe?  I can name these people and remember the top of my head. And whenever I see them online my heart just jumps with joy.

Mark

Jamie

Ryan

Travis

Mitch

Adam

Matty

Alan

Cammy

Craig

And definitely

PANDA!

Those are some of them whom I consider special to me. And I dare say that these people know more about me then my everyday life friends whom I meet in my daily life. I could just talk to them about anything. And I mean anything at all. So why do I feel more connected to them and not some of you? Could it be they understand me better? That I do not know. But one thing I do know is that, they never once judge me. They accepted me for who I am and I need not to pretend or be who anyone else wanted me to be. I got to be me. I got to be the comfy me. I got to be myself and no one else.

Certainly how can I forget my little sister? Vivian or some of you may know her as Viv. She is one of the most awesome and amazing person I have ever met. And certainly pisses me off when some of them just judge her when these “some of them” have never really met her. Seriously, how can you judge people based on ONE or maybe two situations that has happened? And how do you know this situation really happened? Words can be deceiving. Fact that words comes from people, need us to believe it 100%?

So no matter what happens, I am truly blessed to have these people as my friends and I am not saying I don’t appreciate the ones I have in my daily life. I do. But I just felt like these people I just mentioned earlier happens to just be behind the scenes and they needed to be reveal and to let everyone know that they are such amazing people who have touched my life.

Yeah I do know my blog contains too many words. But I couldn’t agree more on what Seth has said to me earlier that; “seeing what is going through a persons mind seems more so interesting than boring, besides its your thoughts you should never think they are boring.”

So if no one wants to read, I wouldn’t mind at all. But in the end of it I know that there will be these few people who may read.

So no one should say nor comment on what a person’s blog should be. And I just have to say this, Kenny I like your blog. Even though some people say its too many words, I still enjoy reading it. xD

I think I should stop now. Considering it has “too many words” now may confuse and bore some of you. I’m kidding. I am really blessed to have every one of you in my life. And yes I love each and every one of you. xD

And yes

PANDA

I love you

xD

Ps: time for sleep now xD