The Feelings I Have Are Mostly Undescribeable.

It seems i’m the one whose taking this too hard.

Happy Birthday April Babies :P March 31, 2008

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aha… March is done! now presenting to you the lovely chicas and dudes who’ll be celebrating their birthday in April :P *drum rolls* lol

2nd April - Rudy
3rd April - Shariza
4th April - Hitakshi
6th April - Riennaa
9th April - Kevin F
15th April - Kimberly Lim
27th April - Jason Lo
27th April - Gayatri
28th April - Sze Wei
28th April - Ballerina

and TA DA! end of list :P for those i’ve missed out ur names for the April’s list then i’m really sorry. btw chicas and dudes of the April Babies…. Happy Birthday you fellas! ahahaha… somehow or rather u people are growing older not younger! lol! love all of you! and hitakshi, me and the girls belanja-ed (treat) you already! ahahaha…. anyhow, have a good birthday and if u people have pictures then send send. i’ll post it up :P

xoxo
Ameera

 

The Long Video at Italianese/The Curve March 31, 2008

 

Blog-ing on a Monday Morning which hurts my hand and Ma, i miss you! March 31, 2008

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Good Morning!

nope not a sunday. Its a Monday and i’m bloging while having chemo now. I’m typing with one hand so its gonna take a while.

i admit i haven’t really been updating my blog last week. A lot of things has happened last week. With Ma’s passing and me being not knowing how to react to this. I just felt so confused. I do admit that me and Ma don’t get along but she’s still my mom. And i love her. I never expect things to just happen so quickly. I was just shocked to hear that Ma passed away on Sunday morning. And i was only informed on Sunday night after everything was done. I did not know how to react. I just couldn’t keep it to myself and finally on Monday i told my girlfriends what is wrong and i just started breaking down. Tearing day and night.

Amelia and Desire made me realise that no matter how much i cry, Ma isn’t coming back. I admit i just felt i did not know what to do how to react and who to run to.

After i told Ili, she called. And i broke down on the phone. I just felt so guilty. Its just that i did not know what to do and it was really affecting me.

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Sunday
which was yesterday, i went out with my girlfriends. And i just felt happy to actually have seen them. It just brightened me up. I laughed, i smiled, i giggle, i crap, i talked and i was finally being myself back again. It was just fun to see them yesterday.

we took pictures, videos! Played chess, ate dinner and of course window shopping :D haha. I’ll post pictures up soon and yes videos are on facebook. If i’m not lazy then i’ll post it here as well. Everything was all fine till on the way to the station i was msn-ing with this Jamie fella. Or Thira knows him as Nick. He just randomly blew at me and i just kinda felt bad cause i thought i made him upset or something. It just had to get to me. *sigh* we’re not talking now so i guess it wont matter. Well he says he wont care so i guess i wont as well.

i just don’t get how can i upset someone by just asking them if they’re okay. Its just a question. Do not need to blow at me for asking! Ish! Damn-ness! I feel like slapping the fella and Jamie now. Fools!

you know what i wont continue posting. I’ll stop here cause my hand hurts. I’ll post more when i get back.

xoxo
Ameera

 

Pictures of KL Sunburst Music Festival 2008 March 24, 2008

 

AMELIA!!!!!!! YOU’RE SO SWEET!!!!!!!!! March 23, 2008

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Green is Ryan’s favourite colour.

And Ameera, this is for you. For all the times i left your name out of my blogs, for all the times we cancelled our dates because things just didn’t seem to work, for all the times i made you upset or sad or left out or any of the negative stuff i make people feel.

Thanks for always being there, and if not physically, taking the time to read my blog entries and sending me perked-my-day comments.

I’ll always be your KAWAN and i’ll always love you.

Wish we could see each other to just be silly more often.

You’ll get better, and i’ll be there when you do.

LOVE YOU LOADS!

I miss having roti-tisu. eeeyyyeerrrr.

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my time to write now! Amelia! that’s extremely sweet. thank you. i just had to copy and paste it on my blog! don’t believe Amelia wrote it? then read it here

i’ll be here for you babe! whenever you need me. ok? i’ll be your KAWAN! too! omg! Amelia i feel like hugging you now! i miss those days in the canteen where we would just sit and talk. make loads of noise. and yes ROTI TISSUE! good times! i’ll remember that. Friends like you make me feel really special! and i will be strong and i will do whatever it is to get better! love you too Amelia! i wish we c ould see each other more often too! nevermind! i shall drop by at HELP one day pay a visit to you, Dila, Takshi, and Ashikin. YES! i’ll bring chocolates k?  and oh the Ryan that Amelia meant is Ryan Cabrera :) i can’t wait to see you! and Amelia, you made my day :P

xoxo
Ameera

 

Sorry Dila :P March 23, 2008

hello!

yea yea… i know just few hours ago i posted a post saying that i’ll be going over to cheer on Dila for her CHARM Cheerleading thingy. but i guess things happen. its human nature. Sorry Babe… i’ll make it up to you.

so why exactly didn’t i go out?  well the plan was to meet at Taman Bahagia LRT’s station so me and Thira could go to The Curve with Amelia. but since Amelia said she couldn’t go, me and Thira decided to meet tup at KJ station and we’ll go by ourselves la. take cab or whatever. so it was all set and good to go. then this woman Thira… she sms me saying that she can’t go! i was like basket case! i don’t wanna go alone. i mean Dila would be performing and i’ll be like lost lol. sorry Dila…. we’ll go out for your birthday k? and yes i know present! i wont forget! lol!

i have no idea why, i was kinda really upset today. just reaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllyyyyyyyy upset! but meh. i’m over with the upset-ness…. i wont let it get to me. like James told me earlier! i quot what he says “Woman get your mind straight” lol! so yea.

k k i’ll stop crapping here. lol. till the next post, daaaaaaaaaaaaa!

xoxo
Ameera

 

Craping on a sunday morning :P March 23, 2008

morning!

its stil morning. and yes its a sunday. told you i’ve been blogging on sunday’s :P anyhow, i’m finally saying this, i actually confested to the fella that i like him. and it went kinda ok la. i mean we’re not together that’s for sure like duh! we’re still frenz la. and everything seems to be normal or at least i think its normal to me. he wasn’t like those guys who would go meh and stuff. so yea.

anywho, i confested! dila and ashikin your next! lol and i know y’ll wont ever confest to ur crushes :P

Dila’s performing at The Curve today. so i might drop by with Thira later. hope everything goes well at CHARM Cheerleading later. GO DILA! lol

tommorrow monday!!!! hate mondays! hate it hate it hate it! i would never like mondays! but i love fridays :P i mean who wont love fridays? lol! yea Dila’s birthday is this week… hahaha… babe i know its coming and yes i know have to get u present. i don’t know what to get you tho. i’m not the present type. i’ll buy it or make it and give it to you during ur birthday dinner la…  lol!

i know i had so much to talk bout but i forgot what was it. and oh Thira and me have been talking so much online so yea. i mean its fun lol. we always have something to talk bout and all. and yeah ‘nick’ lol. na its james actually. sorry i got ur name wrong and all. and no i’m not sally :P

what else yea? of course Ry! Ryan A la for sure. sorry for making things all weird up for you. never intended to make it weird. THIRA!!!!!! thanks for this week babe! lol… i know i annoyed u like crazy and gone all crazy lol… gggggaaaaaahhhhhh! lol…. hahaha….

ILI!!!!!!!!! dude i never really got the chance to thank u for the party the other day…. and thanks for the pictures. i’ll see you soon k?

ok enough crapping. lol. take care. ciao

xoxo
Ameera

 

I Just Wish I Was The Same Person I Was Before March 20, 2008

Good Morning Y’ll!

 wow it seems i’ve been blogging on the morning hours these days. dunno why. ggggggggggggggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh my mind is so messed up. i  just want you outta my head. i know things are just to good to be true. now your not talking to me! i mean wtf! wtf did i do wrong. i never said anything bout my feelings to you. and yet you just ignore me. what did i do? why wont you talk to me? i miss teasing you. CRAP!  damn it! get out of my head!!!! get out get out! every single time your in my head, it makes me sad! i mean why wont you talk to me? what did i do wrong? tell me! tell me!

all i wanna know is why aren’t you talking to me anymore? you know what. i can’t be bothered finishing this post. its just gonna make me feel upset! STUPID! FOOL!

 

THE CLICK FIVE SAYING HELLO TO South East ASIA March 20, 2008

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Protected: I Like You!and I Know Its A Crime For You! (password hint: his full name. so u can try all you want. if its not ur full name then i guess no point trying!) March 16, 2008

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