Hopeless! That’s the only word i can say to express what it is that i’m feeling. At this point where i really needed someone to really talk to, vent at and cry at i realise that there’s not even a single soul whose actually would wanna listen to me or just be here for me.
i texted some of you! I even tried talking to some of you online. But it seems like no one, just no one at all whose gonna lend me a shoulder to cry on.
i understand that i’m a nobody to some of you. But am i not a friend for the rest of you? Am i not a person whose feelings is just fragile? Am i not a person whose half way breaking down in this fight with this disease? If your answer is NO! then what am I? who am I? A ghost? An Animal?
I asked for that one particular chance. Only one chance. Can you give me that very one chance? Answer me! Can you? Will you? It seemed to me that your’re not. Is this one chance i’m asking is just too much? Too hard? Tough for you?
i’m breaking down. I am! I don’t know how much longer i can fight this. I’m doing the best that i can. I’m doing my part. Can i please ask you to do your part as my friend to support me? Is that possible or is it too much?
2 words! attempted suicide. I did that. Yes i did that. But after finding out on Friday that its much worst now, then i guess attempted suicide isn’t it. It is actually me having to fight this. I can’t do it on my own. I need someone to hold my hands and walk down this dark valley of my life right now. Whose hands do i hold on to?
answer me! Answer me!
